Duh.

So I realized that I am the root of me feeling so poopy lately. I am going to seek therapy because I have many things I need to get closure on or work through. I realize that I was becoming dependent on Zack, because it is a habit of mine. And so I talked to him about it and he is very supportive. I am going to spend a lot of time on myself and do the things I love.
This week has been super successful, I have been so sick that I have been working and staying home. Not to mention I have been working 10 hour days.
Last night was the first night Zack spent the night in a week. It was nice and then he left for work right after breakfast and I went to good will with Erika.
Tonight I am going to a birthday party. :)
I have been calling a lot of therapists but none are available when I am not at work. I am going to talk to my boss and see if I can work something out on a lunch break or something because I really need this.

I am on the right path, it's not going to be easy to deal with these things but after it's going to be much easier.