I am feeling better now but I was very upset for a minute last night, in the midst of sickness and anger. Then Zack called me and asked if I would come to the party if he picked me up, he was already on his way haha. So i sat on a couch and tried not to cough and saw my friends and it cheered me up. Today I am going to go get a new ID and new debit card and everything will be okay. Bills were expensive this month so really it's a good thing I don't have any money to spend.



I am having a serious fuck everything day. Yes I said it, fuck. I left work early to go to the doctor because i was dizzy and having trouble breathing. I have an upper respiratory infection and an ear infection. They didn't give me any medicine but told me to take sudafed for my ear. I lost my wallet on my way to the doctor so i couldn't pay my co-pay and have no way to get sudafed or anything. Along with my wallet i lost my bus pass in it, my ID and my debit card. Joy.
I waited at the transit center for a long time to get back on the same bus to look for my wallet- I didn't find it and no one had given it to the driver.
I got home and was waiting to hear from Zack who I had been calling. All of my friends are going to a party which I have no way of getting to- no money, no bus pass etc. And I am sick and should be resting.
Zack called me he is on the way to the party. He usually does something special with me on our anniversary- yes the monthly one super cute right... well i have gotten used to it, this time he didn't even realize it was today. I was hoping for something special that would cheer me up instead he is going somewhere i want to be but can't get to. I asked him if he could come over after and he said he doesn't want to get sick, although he took care of me over the weekend when i first got sick and was most contagious.
I just feel tired, sick and defeated. The days I am supposed to rest are the only days that I can get back all the shit I lost- ID and orca card etc.
I've cried a lot today and have a feeling I am not done.

FUCK THIS!