Hello 2011, holy crap hello February!

The last time I wrote in this was September 2010, and now it's February of 2011. Time flies!
I am no longer slaving away at QFC, I have a full-time lead position as an afternoon preschool teacher. It's a great, I got the job through the substitute teaching I had been doing. The center I work at is for employees of children's hospital. It's really great experience, it's a good atmosphere, pays fairly well and has good benefits. I am very pleased to have this job- and my three month review is coming up soon, which hopefully will include a raise. :)
Music wise I had a show in November, or was it October, I forget. Anyway I had a show, I opened and it was really fun and the audience was very receptive. I actually haven't played anywhere since- strange huh? Though last week I read poetry at an erotic poetry open mic, and ended up singing a madlibs version of a whole new world from Aladdin. It was awesome.
Although I haven't really played anywhere I am still writing music. Zack and I have a pact to write one song a month and preform it, so far it's taking a little more than a month. I just finalized my song last night, but youtube was being a pain so I didn't record it.
Things are going really quite well. I was in counseling for a while, then I got too broke to continue because the one downer of my new job is that it only pays once a month. Unfortunately when I started my job I hadn't saved accordingly so it was very hard for all of November. I am on a wait list for a neat sounding "therapy project" in freemont so hopefully that will come together, there are still a lot of things I am trying to sort out and overcome within myself (and yes, I realize this is a life long process.)
Zack and I are going strong which is exciting, we've been together for six months now. I am constantly re-evaluating and analyzing and continually find myself happy to be with him. Pretty cool, I think he is a great guy and we make a great team.
I miss a lot of people from SD, Hi Sarah!!! Now that I have a full time job it's hard to balance alone time, work time, boyfriend time and friend time. The funny thing is that being gone for two years really changed my social life. Everyone evolved in their friend groups and social ties while I was gone, now that I'm back I am finding myself quite the lone wolf. It's okay, it's how it goes I guess but sometimes I feel lonely or resentful. I get upset sometimes when I realize how often my phone doesn't ring. I have to remember though how busy and crazy I was when I first moved back, I can't blame people for not trying. Also I think some of my old friends just don't realize I am back, or are so used to me being gone that maybe they just don't think to invite me or call me when they're looking for someone to hang out with. I'm also lacking in effort for the same reasons. It's a two way street, c'est la vie.
Slowly but surely I am reconnecting with myself and my home. It's more of a challenge then I had expected but it is a very welcome challenge. I don't know why I thought everything would be the same, and really I am glad it isn't, though I am getting worn thing on adjusting to new situations.
I am going to spend more time on music and as I crawl my way out of deb (another reason my social life has suffered) I am going to begin to take myself out on dates and spend time alone doing the things that really make me happy. One of these days I am going to chug some coffee and set up my darkroom- I will, I will!

So many things I will do, and so much time to do them, that is a good feeling.

I hope you are all doing beautifully.
xoxo
Anny