Money, get away

Here is another fall, and I again have credit to pay off. Not half as much as I did before, but it's still a lot for the little i work. It's perfect timing however; I need to spend time with myself and being broke is a perfect way to get myself to do that.
Last fall I maxed out my credit, and wound up with a preschool job that didn't pay much and spending most of my time with Z instead of going out and spending money I don't have.
This fall, I am in debt and I am single. I have rent covered by nannying, I will be spending my extra money from Post on my card and enjoying making music for free and using all the of the art supplied that I already own.
This is a good thing and I am glad that I have it to push me to spend time with myself, being chill, being introspective and creative. Most of all, creative.

<3

Duh.

So I realized that I am the root of me feeling so poopy lately. I am going to seek therapy because I have many things I need to get closure on or work through. I realize that I was becoming dependent on Zack, because it is a habit of mine. And so I talked to him about it and he is very supportive. I am going to spend a lot of time on myself and do the things I love.
This week has been super successful, I have been so sick that I have been working and staying home. Not to mention I have been working 10 hour days.
Last night was the first night Zack spent the night in a week. It was nice and then he left for work right after breakfast and I went to good will with Erika.
Tonight I am going to a birthday party. :)
I have been calling a lot of therapists but none are available when I am not at work. I am going to talk to my boss and see if I can work something out on a lunch break or something because I really need this.

I am on the right path, it's not going to be easy to deal with these things but after it's going to be much easier.

Poll

Raise your hand if you actually read my posts.

Being selfish is good.

I talked to a very awesome friend and he gave me some good advice, I am feeling a lot more sane. He said that I make the same mistake that most girls make, I stop doing things for me and start doing what I think wants me to do, which is not at all a good idea. I don't even realize I am doing it until I am angry and wonder why I am so resentful.
So I am going to say "no I am not available, I am doing _____" insert things I have been wanting to do. It seems so simple but really dating is just a bunch of silly little things you have to remind yourself about. I am going to focus on me!
:)